Dum Dee Dum... I am not a super hero neither am i spiderman. I am going to save the world... like as if you would believe. I am a maniac. I came from an outer space which is filled with water. I learn swimming at the age of zero.I wail like a cry baby. I crawl like spiderman, i fly like superman, i drive like batman. I live in wonderland. Rugrats is my friend, so is peter pan.
realised i've missed out on a lot on everyone's lives since exam season when i stopped reading blogs, especially of those people overseas because while i'm mugging and stressing over all the engin stuff, these people are happily enjoying their terms overseas, not exam season yet anyway for them.
its been about 2 weeks since exams ended and i don't feel rested. managed to catch up with some people i haven't seen for a long time...and see what they're up to. read more blogs to find out what's been going on in all the uk people's lives, spoke to terence (finally!) on msn to see how he is in france. other than that, been going out with the pal(s).
and then the case of me getting grounded as in totally not allowed to go out. wadever. case closed. from now on i will do as i like. so when i don't go out what do i do? housework and more housework.
getting more and more anti-social. told jo yesterday i do NOT want to go abroad. i don't even want to ask my mum. i just don't want to go. i'm tired. can't i just rest in singapore, at like my grandma's house or something? i don't want to go so far away with people i don't know and not enjoy myself.
in fact, there was so much anger in me that i woke at 4 and couldn't go back to sleep so started work on the website i'm supposed to translate. finish it asap so that i can get my advance without feeling guilty (cos it's already been promised me, but i haven't collected the money cos i haven't even started half of it) and then i can get my new track shoes because i have no wish to get accupunctured again due to my knee and my heel though i think the guy screwed up my left leg so i'll need to go back to him for my left leg.
think i shouldn't meet up with anybody anymore till i get rid of all the anger or i'll be snapping at people for no reason, or pulling a long face when i shouldnt.im also sick of bringing my brother out cos he uses my money and doesn't return it and then when i have no money its my own fault because who asked me to let him use so much money? in addition to the fact that i need to take care of him and make sure he's ok and he sure as hell doesnt listen to me. in which case i shall go to the Concourse on my own to get my own christmas tree. even if there isn't a party at my hosue i think i'll be happy with a christmas tree. maybe i'll just ask a few of my favourite friends over from a long time ago (think that'll number like er 2 or 3?) instead of a gigantic group of people.
i don't even feel like going to lyn's party anymore because i'm so tired. i don't want to go there and have to talk and smile at people because i'm tired. and it doesn't matter that it's like 2 weeks away because i seriously don't think 2 weeks makes a difference. i think the only time i will not be tired will be when school starts again and i have to redo all the engin modules that i failed. i need to zao from singapore. it's suffocating me. my family's suffocating me. the housework is suffocating me.
its dam sad when all the anger is there and you dont know why and therefore you cant do anything about it and you dont know how to make it go away.
